Anonymous; Thee AngeLIC AntiDOTe; Ange Kelly

 I will not be dating anymore. I no longer want a relationship or any form of intimacy with anyone. With that being said, I also don't want children what so ever, I see children as a burden... a responsibility I want nothing to do with.  All up until today, I honestly always wanted to  find a life partner, get married and have children but with all my experiences thus far.... to say the least... I'm good without any of that. I will make myself happy and provide myself with the life I want..alone.  I even told my grandmother and mother... African woman who expect a family out of me that, that will never happen. I don't want it anymore. Message To Self: I'll be with you always.

  To be honest. I didn't even want to go to college. My junior   year of high school was stressful applying to colleges even with my high ass grades and being the 4th "smartest" person in the whole grade. I didn't know what I wanted to do either. I got into City college and told myself imma double major and double minor bc then no jobs can "deny me" ...wrong. I graduated early( almost impossible), ya girl was taking 6 classes a semester! Even failed my statistic class and still made it through   ( I HATE MATH)  Long story short...I got jobs... started to realize the American dream was a lie. A big one. My Single Hard working Strong  traumatized African mother didn't fight and struggle to come to the country and to be in this country for me to be average! So I'm pushing it to the limit. If I leave this earth  with nothing else I'll leave with the fact that I made a lot of money and my mom can retire in peace knowing her only child made it in A...