Getting Over A Situationship: Being Gaslit

 Hello, my name is Ange. I used to have trouble getting myself to eat throughout the day for the past 8 months . I've had this problem for a long time, but it became more severe when I was 19 years old. Since I was ten years old, I've battled depression. I was freed from a two-year toxic relationship and sank into a deep depression. When I was 18, I became involved with a man who didn't like me but felt like I did. My eating disorder was at its lowest point when the breakup was fresh, and I lost a significant amount of weight in a short span of time. I had lost a great deal of hair and was having a hard time getting through my day-to-day life. I tried drinking and smoking marijuana to cope, but it didn't help. I was dealing with a man who wasn't being honest with me, so I went through his social media and put two and two together and questioned him about it on several occasions. He called me pathetic, insecure and controlling....at least those are the three insults that will always stick with me. I was gaslit and always made to be the problem. My feelings and concerns were never taken seriously and I always ended up muting myself and keeping all my feelings and thoughts to myself due to the drama that it caused. I began to doubt all I thought I knew and believed about myself. Fortunately, I have wonderful friends who have been there for me every step of the way. I consider myself extremely fortunate to be able to share my story with you. After this situationship, my mental health was at an all-time low. But I'm glad for the experience since I wouldn't be here today telling my story and assisting others if it hadn't been for it.