My Toxic Traits

 

    I have been toxic in relationships and I'm not afraid to admit it. I have said some rude and nasty things to people about themselves and about others when I was upset. I use to have no filter. When I was upset I was a volcano erupting. No sense of decency or kindness. I was straight up mean and evil. I take complete ownership of that. It was disheartening. I am on a better path now. 


    Being upset doesn't mean to put your frustration on others and become a horrible person. It's best to learn to control your anger because anger is your worst enemy. I would walk around telling myself that I would never forgive certain things and certain people when the entire time I was hurting myself. Holding on to anger towards a person or a situation doesn't harm them. It harms you! We as a people need to learn to let things go. As I said before, harbouring anything that is of no good to you or others does no one justice. At the end, you won't benefit and neither will the other people that are being affected by the things that are being said or the things that have been done. I had to learn that the hard way by having a nervous breakdown. I hope someone is taking my life lessons into account and doing what's best for them. 


    Be kind all the time. Be forgiving and let things go. 


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