Consequences: I Can't Tell Where My Heart Is

 Due to my difficult coping methods, commitment issues, and abandonment issues, I may never be in a relationship.  I'm finding it increasingly difficult to emotionally connect with men on an intimate and emotionally available level. I'm very aware that this is the cause of all of my prior male relationships. I honestly have no idea how to fix it, and that's fine with me. Right now, that's where I'm at. It's just the way it is. I also believe that no one will ever love me, and I would prefer not to be hurt again. I don't have any room to be put down and treated bad.


"If you step out the door, I won't wait after you...."

                                                    ~ Brent Faiyaz


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