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 ...you're just the same as I ever knew....I change but I never change up. A lot of things have "changed". I quit my job as a peer youth advocate.. and now I want to be a teacher lmaoooo. It makes me very uncomfortable that I keep changing my ideal profession but honestly fuck it, imma be a teacher and a social worker. Imma get this masters in education, imma get this masters in social work. I WILL SUCCEED ALONE UNDER ALL CIRCUMSTANCES, God has not let me down yet and I know that I will always be guided in the name of the lord, Jesus Christ.

    I literally almost never know what I'm doing from my love life to my professional life, I just hope and pray all is working in my favor even when they aren't. Adulthood is exhausting, I AM LITERALY BEYOND tired and this is only the beginning, I think much of my fatigue is because I have been through a lot of nonsense, somethings I put myself through but others literally other people abused me to the death... anywaysss its not about allot rn. 

    At this exact moment in time, I got a job as a server.. lol yes a server. I always wanted to be a waitress but I feel like it might be hard asf lowkey bc the restaurant is so huge... but ima make it work like Ive been doing my whole life.I don't have anything as I am writing this, my accounts are literally in the negatives as we speak, I have nothing I lost a lot during my initial mental breakdown and had another mini mental breakdown this year ( April-May 2022) basically the same time as last year in 2021.

I don't really know what is wrong with me but I am certain that I suffer from many mental illnesses...


alsooooooo lol, I loced my hair! May 26, 2022. That's the date, remember it. I am happy and 1000% satisfied with my decision. I have struggled with my hair for far tooooo long, I hated myself for far to long, I hated my hair for far to long . Self hate has been the center of my life fro since I can remember. I am extremely tired of hating myself. I am still insecure about myself and all the problems I have but I will try to get through it, idk where I a headed but hopefully all will be well.


I honestly think I deserve a good life....

Location: United States

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